TIME TO VENT

Yes, it's time for me to vent. Those who know me, know that i love my family
no matter what. But at the same time when they act stupid, it may take me
a while but i'll tell them. You know I'm tired of everyone blaming their actions
on other people. You know right now, my mom won't talk to me. But you know
that's my fault. I said something I felt was true and it hurt her feelings. So, yes
it was my own actions that caused it. not hers.
I guess i'm going to have to stay off my facebook, because now my cousin has
just really set me off. She already knows the prob that her mom has. She knows that
if you don't call her, she won't call you. And if you haven't tried since christmas then
who in the world do you think you are telling people she's ignoring you?
She made promises too about moving back to arkansas and she hasn't followed
through on a damn one of them. She wants to play the church going-holier than
thou stuck up brat. Just because her butt's in a pew doesn't make her better than
anyone. Like I said a month or two back, if you put one person's past away, put the others
away too. You can't be fake and false. Honestly she is not, and never was the person she
wants outsiders to think she is. I told you i needed to vent.
That's what happens when i don't blog or talk like i should. I end up holding too
much in, and imploding on myself. I know it doesn't matter what i say. She'll never feel
like she's wrong, but hey i feel better getting it off my chest.

still here

I haven't written in a while. i got tied up playing my video games. on the 360 and on the
pc. Then spring break. Everytime i thought i was going to type something came up.
Man, we recently shut off the house phone and went to cell phones. I love it. it's cheaper
they're always with us, and so far no annoying credit calls.
We are now a month away from charlie graduating, less than that til his prom. I've watch grow
and i'm proud of who he's turning into, but I still want to cry knowing he's not that
little baby that i could hold and protect. If i tried to hold him now, i'd more than likely break my back.
One of the test that alex just had, shows that he has a big part of colon. So it maybe
not sure yet, maybe possible to have his bag removed. Looking at him too, he's not a baby
anymore either. tall, deep voice, very stubborn. And yes still grounded.
I am going to go for now. I do have a lot i could talk about, but for today i'm not going
to overdo it. Just wanted everyone to know i'm still here.