Things have been pretty good lately. We went last night out to eric's aunt and uncles house
one of his uncles is in from florida. So we all met out there, and ate and laughed and talked,
and watched alex get his butt beat on the wii. Yes he was bowling on the wii against his mimi pelton, and she kicked his tiny hiney. I loved it. We don't plan on letting him live it down.
Charles just got back from choir festivale and they did really well. I'm always happy when he makes it home safely. I have to run for now. I need soda and of course have to go to the store to get it.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
PAST IN THE PAST
I NEED to vent. I am sick and tired of the way a family member walks arounds and acts like they are above and better than everyone else in their family. And i can tell you for as much as i love family, they're really @#*!#$@ me off.
I would really like to know what makes them think they are all that? They want to leave the past in the past. But only the past of people outside the family. Yes i'm angry. Boy they wouldn't like it if i plastered their past all over town. And if i was that kind of person i would.
How could someone treat their mom so bad? I mean the woman who gave you life and kept you alive. They like to say their g-ma raised them. BS, they were with us if they weren't with their mom. They did spend weekends with their g-ma, maybe a week holiday break. If i hear the words the phone works both ways again, i'll explode. They would like to blame moms bi-polar, but that's not it at all. Truth be known i think they need to be checked for bi-polar. When someone doesn't call me for a while or only when they something, and don't really care about what's going on with me then why would i call them? Just to feel unwanted? I understand why their mom doesn't try to call them anymore. Their moms alone and sometimes she needs help or would like a child and mother project. But i'm the only one she can call. I'm a daughter to my mom and to her. I don't mind. It's not my place but i don't mind. I do what i can. I'm sorry they only want to leave their bio dads past in the past. And man half of this town could tell you bio dad was worse. Boy they want their moms house though. Personally i think their mom should leave the house to the state or the humane society. Noone else has cared enough to help her get it to where it's gotten the last few months. If they ever find a way to read this, they'll be calling and telling me off and blaming their mom, but i know better. THEY are no better then what they think their mom was.
And oh, oh the g-ma we share together. Hardly any contact, count it on one hand. Let me see them cry when we lose her. They don't have a right to cry. I feel strongly enough about that to the point i did my best last weekend to make sure they didn't know tha g-ma was in the heart unit. There will be some people upset about this blog. But it's to the point that i am so angry about this that it's either blog it or scream it out loud. So for those of you, please forgive me and understand i've finally had enough.
I just strongly feel if you really believe in leaving the past in the past. Make sure it's everyone's past or yours could come back and bite you in the butt.
I would really like to know what makes them think they are all that? They want to leave the past in the past. But only the past of people outside the family. Yes i'm angry. Boy they wouldn't like it if i plastered their past all over town. And if i was that kind of person i would.
How could someone treat their mom so bad? I mean the woman who gave you life and kept you alive. They like to say their g-ma raised them. BS, they were with us if they weren't with their mom. They did spend weekends with their g-ma, maybe a week holiday break. If i hear the words the phone works both ways again, i'll explode. They would like to blame moms bi-polar, but that's not it at all. Truth be known i think they need to be checked for bi-polar. When someone doesn't call me for a while or only when they something, and don't really care about what's going on with me then why would i call them? Just to feel unwanted? I understand why their mom doesn't try to call them anymore. Their moms alone and sometimes she needs help or would like a child and mother project. But i'm the only one she can call. I'm a daughter to my mom and to her. I don't mind. It's not my place but i don't mind. I do what i can. I'm sorry they only want to leave their bio dads past in the past. And man half of this town could tell you bio dad was worse. Boy they want their moms house though. Personally i think their mom should leave the house to the state or the humane society. Noone else has cared enough to help her get it to where it's gotten the last few months. If they ever find a way to read this, they'll be calling and telling me off and blaming their mom, but i know better. THEY are no better then what they think their mom was.
And oh, oh the g-ma we share together. Hardly any contact, count it on one hand. Let me see them cry when we lose her. They don't have a right to cry. I feel strongly enough about that to the point i did my best last weekend to make sure they didn't know tha g-ma was in the heart unit. There will be some people upset about this blog. But it's to the point that i am so angry about this that it's either blog it or scream it out loud. So for those of you, please forgive me and understand i've finally had enough.
I just strongly feel if you really believe in leaving the past in the past. Make sure it's everyone's past or yours could come back and bite you in the butt.
NEVER KNOW
It's only thursday, and man it's already been a week for the record books. for 3 days i've been down with what i thought might be a kidney infection, but am starting to think maybe i just pulled a muscle real close to my kidney. We've disassembled 2 dog kennels. Assembled 4 dog kennels. Had to straighten one because apparently a water filled tarp is too much, and caved the back side of it in. And yesterday i called the cops on well, it turned out to be the cops. This morning I got caught in the middle of a dog fight. Thankfully, mad as they were, they did not want to bite mom. Now they're pouting. even though they're in kennels they are now also chained. I guess you could say they're grounded. But hey, i can always think back to monday.
We've been trying to talk to alex about finding a way to get his baritone home for him to practice. Charles isn't always where he can bring him home, and the bus driver says the bus is to crowded for them to bring these things home. Well, we're all talking and charles tells us how the band director said he knows alex isn't practicing because he has no rhythm. And we're always on alex about pulling up his pants. After hearing what the band director said, my sweet hubby, without missing a beat or cracking a smile looks at alex and says " you know what that tells me? pull your pants up because your butt is white." I lost it. charlie starts choking. Alex, i kid you not, stands up and pulls up his pants. Then it hits him. But he didn't find it quite as funny.
I never know what's going to be said or done around here. It's kind of scary.
We've been trying to talk to alex about finding a way to get his baritone home for him to practice. Charles isn't always where he can bring him home, and the bus driver says the bus is to crowded for them to bring these things home. Well, we're all talking and charles tells us how the band director said he knows alex isn't practicing because he has no rhythm. And we're always on alex about pulling up his pants. After hearing what the band director said, my sweet hubby, without missing a beat or cracking a smile looks at alex and says " you know what that tells me? pull your pants up because your butt is white." I lost it. charlie starts choking. Alex, i kid you not, stands up and pulls up his pants. Then it hits him. But he didn't find it quite as funny.
I never know what's going to be said or done around here. It's kind of scary.
Monday, February 9, 2009
WHY CHARMED?
Some of those who know me would ask why i named my blog paulettes charmed life? I'm not
wealthy or powerful or even drop dead beautiful. I don't think any of that matters. Everyday
above ground is a blessing. Every moment with my husband and kids is a gift from GOD. Every
phone call or email from someone i love is icing on the cake. We have food clothing and shelter.
That's how i see my life as being charmed. When you have all these things how can it not be a
charmed life? Life can get muddled can turn fast-paced in the blink of an eye and things will not
always go your way. Just always remember to love always, laugh a lot, lend an ear or shoulder,
reach out your hand, say a prayer, and always thank GOD. You'll see why it can be a charmed
life. Because you'll know that those that are really close to you love you for you, and not your
money or house or car.
wealthy or powerful or even drop dead beautiful. I don't think any of that matters. Everyday
above ground is a blessing. Every moment with my husband and kids is a gift from GOD. Every
phone call or email from someone i love is icing on the cake. We have food clothing and shelter.
That's how i see my life as being charmed. When you have all these things how can it not be a
charmed life? Life can get muddled can turn fast-paced in the blink of an eye and things will not
always go your way. Just always remember to love always, laugh a lot, lend an ear or shoulder,
reach out your hand, say a prayer, and always thank GOD. You'll see why it can be a charmed
life. Because you'll know that those that are really close to you love you for you, and not your
money or house or car.
ROSE PETALS
Eric and i will be married 6 years next month. After being married and divorced 3
times before i fell into the " i will not get married again" trap. And to tell the truth if
i had not met eric, i would not be married. we are a great fit. he irritates me, i really
try to irritate him. which in turns irritates me more, because he's so hard to irritate.
He seems harsh sometimes, but he isn't. He just looks at things different. He does
keep a good balance between us. He does always look for the positive and sometimes
that's annoying. He may not agree with why something makes me feel a certain way.
And of course, he'll tell me. He hides nothing. He does not beat around the bush or him ha.
He calls it like he sees it. There are sometimes when i do wish he could let me feel how i
need to feel without a lecture, but at the same time i thank GOD that he will at least hear
what i have to say. He loves my boys like they were his own would do or die for them.
He loves my g-ma so much.
He is really good to us, but 1 thing he did for me i will never forget. About 3 years ago
On valentines day. I came in from work. I was irritated, tired, hungry and just really wanted
to forget that day had ever happened. But I was glad to be home. I walked into our room,
And from the entrance of our bathroom all the way to the tub was a trail of rose petals.
There was a hot bath run and rose petals in the water. I was so shocked and happy. Not
only had he done this for me, but he had been listening when i told him I always wanted
a rose petal bath.
We wanted something special for last year, our 5th anniversary. I wanted to see tigers.
He took me to eureka springs for the weekend. I got to see big beautiful cats at turpentine creek
refuge. And we stayed in the nicest little inn. We were the only guests on the top floor.With one couple on the bottom floor. We had a hot tub in our room, and a balcony. We weren't far
from home but it was just the two of us no pressure, no work. So i felt a million miles a way
from home. That was the best weekend i've had in as long as i can remember. So this year
we're going back in june for the father's day powwow and my b-day, with the kids and his
parents. It won't be as magical, but it be great.
times before i fell into the " i will not get married again" trap. And to tell the truth if
i had not met eric, i would not be married. we are a great fit. he irritates me, i really
try to irritate him. which in turns irritates me more, because he's so hard to irritate.
He seems harsh sometimes, but he isn't. He just looks at things different. He does
keep a good balance between us. He does always look for the positive and sometimes
that's annoying. He may not agree with why something makes me feel a certain way.
And of course, he'll tell me. He hides nothing. He does not beat around the bush or him ha.
He calls it like he sees it. There are sometimes when i do wish he could let me feel how i
need to feel without a lecture, but at the same time i thank GOD that he will at least hear
what i have to say. He loves my boys like they were his own would do or die for them.
He loves my g-ma so much.
He is really good to us, but 1 thing he did for me i will never forget. About 3 years ago
On valentines day. I came in from work. I was irritated, tired, hungry and just really wanted
to forget that day had ever happened. But I was glad to be home. I walked into our room,
And from the entrance of our bathroom all the way to the tub was a trail of rose petals.
There was a hot bath run and rose petals in the water. I was so shocked and happy. Not
only had he done this for me, but he had been listening when i told him I always wanted
a rose petal bath.
We wanted something special for last year, our 5th anniversary. I wanted to see tigers.
He took me to eureka springs for the weekend. I got to see big beautiful cats at turpentine creek
refuge. And we stayed in the nicest little inn. We were the only guests on the top floor.With one couple on the bottom floor. We had a hot tub in our room, and a balcony. We weren't far
from home but it was just the two of us no pressure, no work. So i felt a million miles a way
from home. That was the best weekend i've had in as long as i can remember. So this year
we're going back in june for the father's day powwow and my b-day, with the kids and his
parents. It won't be as magical, but it be great.
NEVER ASK WHY. they might tell you.
I love having this blog. For one i don't always say how i feel about something.
sometimes my writers block for poetry lasts for a year a longer, and i just can't wait that long
to express myself. And let's face it when you're the only girl in a house full of guys,
ages 34, 18, and 14. There are a lot of times when hey you're not a person, you're my wife
or mom and your feelings get kind of lost in translation. would it be better if i had a
daughter? NO!! she'd hate me for not letting her date or show any skin. Like i said
house full of guys, i know what they're thinking.
Take alex for example: he came in the other day to let me know when he gets older he wants
to move to africa. Thinking that's not usually high on the list that teenagers dream of moving
to. Like an idiot i ask why. Little known fact, don't ask why. just let it go. The answer i got
I was so not expecting, because he gave me 2 reasons. I can only remember 1. And that
would be his main reason. " the girls are hot and sexy there". I don't ever want to ask why again,
but being a mom i'm sure i will while cringing and praying he does not answer me.
And yes, girls would be the reason he's having trouble with his grades. It seems like
yesterday i was holding him and telling him girls were evil, and today i am threatening
to have him neutered, because i don't want grand kids.
sometimes my writers block for poetry lasts for a year a longer, and i just can't wait that long
to express myself. And let's face it when you're the only girl in a house full of guys,
ages 34, 18, and 14. There are a lot of times when hey you're not a person, you're my wife
or mom and your feelings get kind of lost in translation. would it be better if i had a
daughter? NO!! she'd hate me for not letting her date or show any skin. Like i said
house full of guys, i know what they're thinking.
Take alex for example: he came in the other day to let me know when he gets older he wants
to move to africa. Thinking that's not usually high on the list that teenagers dream of moving
to. Like an idiot i ask why. Little known fact, don't ask why. just let it go. The answer i got
I was so not expecting, because he gave me 2 reasons. I can only remember 1. And that
would be his main reason. " the girls are hot and sexy there". I don't ever want to ask why again,
but being a mom i'm sure i will while cringing and praying he does not answer me.
And yes, girls would be the reason he's having trouble with his grades. It seems like
yesterday i was holding him and telling him girls were evil, and today i am threatening
to have him neutered, because i don't want grand kids.
Friends and family
I made a wonderful new friend this weekend. I've talked to her a few times.
she works at my grandmas insurance company. And sometimes I have to talk to her
well, her and i work together to help grandma. She adores grandma.
Well, saturday when g-ma went in for observation, I called her to let her know
where g-ma was. went spent a long time talking and getting to know each other.
What i really liked was that while we were talking she just seemed to fall into place.
Like she's belonged here this whole time. I don't trust a lot of people and don't really
get close to a lot of people, but she felt like family finally taking her place.
My sister? I can't begin to tell you how much I love and admire my sister. I
may be the oldest, but i can still learn from her. ( don't get a big head sis, hahahaha)
I've got to watch her with her kids, she's great. I listen to her talk, it doesn't really matter
what she says, i just like to hear her talk. Yeah, when we were younger maybe we had some
sister stuff. But as you grow you realize, when there is noone else who knows you, and
noone else you can call, cradle to grave, there's your sister or brother. Could i walk in my
sisters shoes? Yes. Could i do it as well as she does? not even half as close.
I do wish we had more time to talk or visit, but hey as busy as she stays and i get sometimes
If we can at least send a hey you over facebook, i feel better.
she works at my grandmas insurance company. And sometimes I have to talk to her
well, her and i work together to help grandma. She adores grandma.
Well, saturday when g-ma went in for observation, I called her to let her know
where g-ma was. went spent a long time talking and getting to know each other.
What i really liked was that while we were talking she just seemed to fall into place.
Like she's belonged here this whole time. I don't trust a lot of people and don't really
get close to a lot of people, but she felt like family finally taking her place.
My sister? I can't begin to tell you how much I love and admire my sister. I
may be the oldest, but i can still learn from her. ( don't get a big head sis, hahahaha)
I've got to watch her with her kids, she's great. I listen to her talk, it doesn't really matter
what she says, i just like to hear her talk. Yeah, when we were younger maybe we had some
sister stuff. But as you grow you realize, when there is noone else who knows you, and
noone else you can call, cradle to grave, there's your sister or brother. Could i walk in my
sisters shoes? Yes. Could i do it as well as she does? not even half as close.
I do wish we had more time to talk or visit, but hey as busy as she stays and i get sometimes
If we can at least send a hey you over facebook, i feel better.
FOR THE LOVE OF...MUSIC? OR MIMI?
friday and saturday were big days and long days for charlie. He already feels
the pressure of being 18, graduation looming around the corner, leaving for
college, working and paying his truck. And in between all this he does his best
to try to be where he can stay saturday nights with mimi.
This weekend was rough for him. friday the band left school 5th period to go
to all state jazz band tryouts in russelville. He got home about 10:30pm. He did
not make it, but was not concerned. He didn't want jazz band. He wanted all
state concert band. So he gets up saturday morning has to be at the school by
7:30 am and they once again leave for russelville. He didn't get home until after
11:30pm. He did not make that either. I have seen the looks of pain, sadness,
anger, and torment on boys faces. I know what it looks like. But my baby at that
time had a look that broke my heart. It was a mixture of all four of them. While
i'm wanting to comfort him and let him know that whether he made it or not
he was good enough to get there, i'm also having to tell him that mimi's in the heart
unit for overnight observation. I watched as the color drained from my sons face.
He took the phone called his mimi, and by the time he hung up he was feeling better.
He told me that since going was mimi's idea he wasn't worried anymore because that
meant that whatever was wrong they were going to catch it. Now he's still hurt about
not making all state, but he feels honored that he still has his greatgrand mom.
Afterall how many people can say that?
the pressure of being 18, graduation looming around the corner, leaving for
college, working and paying his truck. And in between all this he does his best
to try to be where he can stay saturday nights with mimi.
This weekend was rough for him. friday the band left school 5th period to go
to all state jazz band tryouts in russelville. He got home about 10:30pm. He did
not make it, but was not concerned. He didn't want jazz band. He wanted all
state concert band. So he gets up saturday morning has to be at the school by
7:30 am and they once again leave for russelville. He didn't get home until after
11:30pm. He did not make that either. I have seen the looks of pain, sadness,
anger, and torment on boys faces. I know what it looks like. But my baby at that
time had a look that broke my heart. It was a mixture of all four of them. While
i'm wanting to comfort him and let him know that whether he made it or not
he was good enough to get there, i'm also having to tell him that mimi's in the heart
unit for overnight observation. I watched as the color drained from my sons face.
He took the phone called his mimi, and by the time he hung up he was feeling better.
He told me that since going was mimi's idea he wasn't worried anymore because that
meant that whatever was wrong they were going to catch it. Now he's still hurt about
not making all state, but he feels honored that he still has his greatgrand mom.
Afterall how many people can say that?
Take it up with my head...............
So far the last 5 days haven't brought as much stress as usual. eric thinks
i like stress, but whatever he needs to tell himself. I got alex's blood pressure
meds changed. hopefully the headaches will go away. we'll know soon.
speaking of alex, we're always picking on him about his memory. It really
can be funny. His responses can also just send you laughing until you cry.
just the other night we were telling him something, and i'm not sure how
it happened, because it happened so fast, but eric got onto to him because
he'd just forgotton something from not a second ago. Out of nowhere my
sweet, precious, youngest son responded with, " well, i can't help it, and if you have
a problem with it you can take it up with my head!" I can honestly say that
at the point whatever stress i might have been feeling, GONE!! I laughed so
hard i was crying, had to get my bladder to a safe spot, and eric's just staring.
I think he might have laughed, but hey i was running for the bathroom.
Alex also laughing, wanted to know what was so funny. how do you respond to that?
i like stress, but whatever he needs to tell himself. I got alex's blood pressure
meds changed. hopefully the headaches will go away. we'll know soon.
speaking of alex, we're always picking on him about his memory. It really
can be funny. His responses can also just send you laughing until you cry.
just the other night we were telling him something, and i'm not sure how
it happened, because it happened so fast, but eric got onto to him because
he'd just forgotton something from not a second ago. Out of nowhere my
sweet, precious, youngest son responded with, " well, i can't help it, and if you have
a problem with it you can take it up with my head!" I can honestly say that
at the point whatever stress i might have been feeling, GONE!! I laughed so
hard i was crying, had to get my bladder to a safe spot, and eric's just staring.
I think he might have laughed, but hey i was running for the bathroom.
Alex also laughing, wanted to know what was so funny. how do you respond to that?
Thursday, February 5, 2009
my heroes
well, I'm waiting on a call back from childrens hospital. It looks like they're going
to have to adjust alex's blood pressure medicine. That's my 14 year old son.
He was born with so many medical problems. He's had at least 8 surgeries since he was born
maybe more to come, and now on top of that high blood pressure.
But i have watched this kid for 14 years and i have to admit he's my hero.
everything he's been through. This kid has a spirit that's solid as a rock.
What he's gone through i don't think any adult, including myself, would come out of
with such a strong spirit.
Charles, well he's my big one. 18 years old, got his scholarship and acceptance letter
to college. He's another hero of mine. He is very strong in what he believes, i mean
unshakable. He stills spends as many saturday nights as he can with his great-grandma.
He still believes in no sex before marriage. He knows what he wants, and how to get
it. If GOD had given me a catalog, i could not have picked 2 better children. I learn
a lot from them everyday.
to have to adjust alex's blood pressure medicine. That's my 14 year old son.
He was born with so many medical problems. He's had at least 8 surgeries since he was born
maybe more to come, and now on top of that high blood pressure.
But i have watched this kid for 14 years and i have to admit he's my hero.
everything he's been through. This kid has a spirit that's solid as a rock.
What he's gone through i don't think any adult, including myself, would come out of
with such a strong spirit.
Charles, well he's my big one. 18 years old, got his scholarship and acceptance letter
to college. He's another hero of mine. He is very strong in what he believes, i mean
unshakable. He stills spends as many saturday nights as he can with his great-grandma.
He still believes in no sex before marriage. He knows what he wants, and how to get
it. If GOD had given me a catalog, i could not have picked 2 better children. I learn
a lot from them everyday.
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